Sorry guys.

[Dr Honda]

Hi all,

Well, most of you may have noticed that I have been absent for a few months... and even toward the end of summer, I was getting intermittent.


I feel that I need to let you guys know what's been going on.

Toward the middle of summer, I started getting angry for no reason, and I was having heavy mood swings. After awhile, I realized that I was starting to suffer from clinical depression. Because of that, I got off the meds I was taking, and things were getting better. After about a month or so... the symptoms were coming back. It's been very hard to deal with normal life. Obviously, to the people around me, I needed to "Put on a happy face"... but then, at the end of the day, I just couldn't bring myself to sit down at a computer and deal with other people's problems. I've had a few Dr's that want to put me on anti-depression meds... but the side effects from those meds seem worse than the problem I'm having now.

With the support of my wife, and family, I'm trying to work though my problems.

Anyway... I'm sorry for not being here for you guys, and I will try harder to stop in at least once a day. (if I'm still welcome)

 

[LouDoo]

Tony,

Of course your welcome, we have certainly missed your wit and especially your wisdom. Please contribute as much or as little as you like.

Lou

 

[Dennis]

What Lou said. Stick to your priorities.....it will all work out.

 

[bigJake]

Tony,

There sure are alot of folks here on the forum that are depending on you as being one of the primary "Go to Experts" to get back here as soon as you are able. We not only want you back, we NEED you back!

 

[Seadoobuddy]

Tony.
We welcome you as often or as little as you feel comfortable with the forum.
Your health comes first.
I'm sure the docs and your family will help you through this "difficult time".
SDB

 

[purple_people_eater]

its perfectly understandable. I've been wondering where you've been. it all right, its hard for everyone right now. as a long suffer of anger issues myself(and i still explode form time to time) its best to find something where you can vent your anger on a something intangible. whatever your situation i wish you well, and i hope you are able to find a balance. remember when you start to get angry, just stop... breathe.

 

[griz400]

hope the holidays make things a little sweeter for u, sometimes they do or they dont, me and cyndee lost our son around the holidays about 15 yrs ago, i see u said your doin better with wife and family, remember family is most important, more than anything, so that said, we all consider you family here also, at least pop in daily and get on seadoobuddy, it will make u feel better (it works for all us here )-- lol


take a weekend stay at 7 springs, we used to go there alot when we lived in pa - gets mind off everything

 

[Seadoobuddy]

tony - For a vacation Jake still might have a time share condo available to use. I think it's in Vegas.......just an idea.

 

[Sink]

Tony,

Your wisdomis always appreciated but your health is the most important. Hang in there and get better!

Sink

 

[seadoosnipe]

I can equate your feelings there Tony, and yes, you are always welcome. For the majority of you in the forum, Tony was offered a moderators position with the forum some time back, due to his vast knowledge and willingness to help members who needed it. And with true forum class, also believed that there are no stupid questions. But, because he had already gained the respect of forum members for who he was, decided that he didn't want the additional responsibility of a moderator. He's not just a local guide for his area, but a local guide for the entire forum.

I know what your feeling. If you remember, I had to take a leave myself. The pressure from daily life, holding down a job, raising a family, and tending to the none stop "river rats" coming by the house for help, then the none stop punching away at a keyboard, is very stressful. You may surely have more (or more serious) problems than I did, but in the end, you'll be back. When you are ready and things are looking up again, you'll remember where you can come and communicate with like minded people.

Get well Tony, you have my number, feel free to call on me if you need anything. Burn a big fat one now and again, it helps...LOL J/K!

 

[Dr Honda]

Thanks for the well wishes guys.

I think one of my ways to recovery is to force myself to get back into routine. As I started having problems, I noticed that all I wanted to do is to sit on the couch, and watch TV. I couldn't find the motivation to do anything, including putting up Xmas lights on the outside of my house. NOW... you have to understand, that I normally, have a very elaborate display out side. My 5 year old was upset, but no that Xmas is over, I guess it doesn't mater.

Also, many of my other hobbies have been sitting. So my road to recovery is getting out and doing what I use to find enjoyable. (and sit less)

 

[Carguy89]

Wish you the best of luck!

 

[ocod]

Best wishes Tony and your family
Have a Happy Year

Wipe slate clean and start a new year in a positive attitude.